Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Una Elephante

Since my ma's stroke she has been singing me this song ' UNA ELEPHANTE ' and it makes me smile. Genuinely smile.

Thursday, September 25, 2008


My tears trace unfamiliar patterns on my cheeks.

How could I possibly be so lost.

When did I stop breathing.

Stop feeling.

That's it. I'm done.

I have no rhythm anymore.

I give up.

Man, i'm angry.

But there's nowhere I can place any blame.

I'm looking. Still looking.

In the meantime, I still have this damn mascara running down my face.............

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

my fear

It is so dark but your door is cracked open to expose a dim light. That's not all it exposed. You right there laying on the floor looking so vulnerable, feverishly writing. Writing, what were you writing? I startled you when I asked if everything was ok. You said you just couldn't sleep but I knew better.

Not everything is as it seems.
Your mask is slipping down.
Exposing my deepest fears.

Saturday, September 6, 2008

I mean seriously.....

This year. 2008. Is not following any plan. Not that I had one to begin with. It's amazing that I am still able to laugh. I mean seriously...... Let's start with my 4 1/2 year relationship. It ended in a very unhealthy manner, which I should have seen coming. But yet didn't. Then my childhood dog goes and dies right in my arms. Fast-forward a few months and my mother has a heart attack and stroke. Now here we are 2 months later and I end up breaking my foot and will be in a walking cast for the next 5 weeks or so. Oh and my fish passed on as well last week.

This is really not my year.

But here I am still laughing..........